I think that I shall never see Such an awesome, rich and fabulous Cre- Ation as I've been privileged to live in and the shell in which I be. Melissa V Rentchler 25 April 2012

Not just a sum of Personal choices made and chances given, But more importantly an algebraic equation after the equal sign is Intention- and being in touch with the greater consciousness- driven. Melissa V. Rentchler 25 April 2012

The story told the teller to tell As the teller told the story fell Soon the heavens drifted into hell To the tower! The one with the bell Ring it hard to warn every angel Down they came like fierce gale The teller can no longer tell his tale Just as creatures of light began to wail Demons arose from the depths of hell Out of the darkness and into the sun Basking in the damage the devil has done The Voice of God bellows in hurtful pain To see his every brother of light left slain Here stands the angel of brightest light Avenge them or join them by fall of night Flights of demons have winged the world to its rest Slay them one by one till left breathless The Creator stiff in awe at chaotic wrath As The Voice of God screeched in crazed war path Creatures of light lie dark as devils Brightest light felt anger through a mass of rivals And it is here where the story unravels Father I have tasted death at my hand For so many of my brothers lie slain across the land In my despairing hour I failed to call to you With my sword each one of their fates I drew One by one in vengeful rage Now to find the teller with story on torn page My brothers and your children, dead because of him I implore you to wash me of my original sin I felt emotion as the humans do My liege, Forgive me! I beg of you! I’ll cascade kisses on to your feet And follow you for millennia on bended knee Come lead the way on mother’s gravel Let us seek the teller, away we travel After all, the one they seek is I, The Devil. 01/2005 P. Ll.

What caused the fear that caused the fear That fateful, ancient day? Who was the one that felt it there - The fear still felt today? Was it the loss of someone close Or pain from life unfair, Or insane thoughts, dark and morose That caused his heart to tear? From evil thoughts came evil deeds Young eyes soon beheld. That evil instilled in planted seed That doomed a line to Hell. Seeds then took root, rotted from birth, Evil felt and done. What did it cost, what was it worth That changed the ancient one? Lives have passed and much has changed But evil lurks within Heirs apparent to thoughts deranged Of pain caused by own kin. The fear that was felt to look in the eyes Of the ancient one that day Through which my father saw the cries He caused when I disobeyed. That fear is the fear that caused the fear That fateful, ancient day. Refusing to pass it on from here, Forgiveness starts today.

Floating in darkness; no sail, no keel, No thought to which is right. Compass spins, this can't be real; A silent scream I fight... Four winds are blowing, some gale and some tame, All affected by the past. For Love or for Honor, For fun or for Fame? Each is within my grasp. Each heading a gain, each one a cost; Some even lead to Bliss. Each dream I've lived has come at a cost, Each starting just like this: Get lost in love and make her my own, Or forever stay unhurt? To look in her eyes and see I'm home and see a family I'd convert. Greater love hath no other; I'd pay the ultimate price. To fight beside beloved brother; If only I could pay twice. Relaxing and living life to its fullest; A smile upon my face. No ties, no bills, no wordly stress. Is it time to give up the race? With focus and talent all can be had The impossible becoming fact. Should I stand on the shoulders or maybe go mad. Is discovery my final act? Time to reflect, time to stand-to; Time to regain my sight. Hasty decisions lead to wasted positions, How do I know which way's right?

Sullen days with harsh words siaid, Confusion clouds the mind. Not from the heart, just from the head, Comments less than kind. Did I go too far, did I say too much? What did she mean last night? Wanting to leave, begging to touch, Who cares who was right? Hurtful thoughts born by fear Of being left alone. Words not to say and not to hear, Made worse by volume and tone. Why do we hurt the ones that we love? Do we realize the actual cost? Why is it only when push comes to shove Do we realize what could have been lost? I've hurt the one I love the most; I hate myself for this deed. Scared she'll leave, afraid to be close. My heart can't help but to bleeed. Will she forgive me for all tha I've said? Did she hear the thoughts tha t I meant? Will we be closer or further instead, Me and my Heaven-sent? Forgive me for all that I've done. Please hear my doubts and my fears. Someday we will be as one And together spend our years.

Who is this creature that's captured my sould? A long-lost friend never met? How can it be that I was not whole? Incompleteness, did I forget? I look into eyes that seem like my own. I hear thoughts from my head. Are my thoughts to her as easily known- Are my feelings so easily read? This stranger now known, familiar, yet not; I feel like I've known her for years. In this chasm my heart has been caught, My comfort is mixed in with fears. Do I know the one that I see Or is she just playing a part. If I give in and bring her to me, I could just lost my own heart. Is this person I've known for so long Someone I've just been shown? Or is she par of a secret song I thought I was singing alone? In her I see visions of me, in me I see her; Could this truly be true? The lines between she and me, beginning to blur, The one tha was once two. A choice I've been given - the gauntlet thrown; To trust or go my own way. My head so unsure, my heart so unknown. My soul says with her I'll stay.

My senses lost in color unknown, I stare and wonder complete. Breathless and dazed my mind has flown With thoughts I dare not repeat. Color mysterious, casting a spell Feelings so mixed they cry. Thoughts I wish her I could tell, I wonder above all else, 'Why?' Her touch beyond my grasp just lies; A chasm I cannot cross. Tortuous beauty! my mind decries; So found and yet so lost. What a day it will be when at last I know In what my future lies, And in feelings I hope will surely grow As colorful as your eyes.

A dream of springtime, warm breezes relax, Giggling water attends. As right as rain this feeling attracts, Above time and space it transcends. A look from her eyes, flowing within, A gentle brook is felt. Whisking me gently, and so it begins, The stone in my chest starts to melt. Does she realize the power she wields With sparkled glance or subtle smile? Feelings inside yearning for fields To run and be free for a while. Oh lonely, empty place is my heart Ne’er warmed by love’s true light. A want to be wanted, a want to be part Of two that are one in Love’s sight. While closing my eyes, I’m drawn into hers As pools of warm light reflect Inside I feel the breeze as it stirs Familiar unknowns recollect. The place in her heart I see in her eyes Mirrored from my soul’s deepest hue? Or is it then more, do I realize, The same place from two points of view?

Canyon cry with no return Empty giftbox stare. Desperate songbird awaits in fern With whistled lover’s prayer. Hearts feel but slighted with love unrequited Bared open for all to see Once flame has been lighted and blood is excited Ask quickly turns to plea. Am I a fool that brings but a laugh; Acting in but a play? Am I but blind to think I am half Of something more than today? Uncharted waters ‘neath starless nights Spinning needle guides. Port or starboard, which is right? Clueless captain decides. Oh! For a sign, a clue to thought - A hint to show the way. Matched am I in affection sought, Or am I just astray? Sail on will I to fate unknown, Pursuing heart’s intent Till end I wonder ever alone, Am I for she meant?